Contemplate

I have been working in this company for almost 8 years. What do I get? A lot –salary–contractual bonus-incentive-performance bonus-stock option– rubbish-problems-late working-friends-experience-work-and more work. This is considered my first job after graduation – though I have actually done some temporary teaching before I join this organization.

During the 8 years, there are numerous times that I considered leaving the company, for a change and for a better deal but since the company allowed a staff for inter department transfer – provided that the new boss wants you and you have served the existing dept for at least 2 years, my plan to leave has been postponed. Every time I plan to leave, an opening from another dept interest me, applied and got the position. So in this very same company I have worked from servicing the customer (front end) – back end operations – and now in the middle office.

Now I’m contemplating again! But this time it is different. Recently, I’ve applied some positions for the government. I was called to sit for an exam for PTD and just few days ago I received a letter stating that I passed the exam and am required to go for a 3 days assessment training. I am very much excited to go and thrilled to have passed the exam as I have heard from many people that the exam is tough. The papers were tough indeed. The one tiny miny problem is that, if I am successful with the application, I’m going to have a salary cut – about two third of salary cut. Ouch! That will hurt.

I have been doing a lot of thinking – people say that money isn’t everything. Maybe I have to prove that point to myself. Maybe I have to start prioritizing. First thing first - Kids (ahh…this one do need a lot of money!)- but I may have more time to spend for them (I hope). Next - start cutting down on my expenses – change the brands – or change the source of payment to pay for the brand – “pay by own money” to “pay by husband money”…hmmmm… good thinking.

Well, I guess I do have to set my priorities. If I continue to be in the fast lane – my kids will grow up very fast without me realizing it. I don’t want to miss that. As much as I don’t want them to miss me getting older. Wish me luck and whatever the decision is, may it be the best!