Alarm

When I wed AT, he was lousy with dates, He can't remember birthdays, anniversaries etc. I make a fuss about it. Merajuk dan perkara-perkara yang sewaktu dengannya. I gave him hard time. He took days to pujuk me. I will ask him questions like, next week is anniversary kita yang ke berapa? He answered 11 instead of 10. I went on "Do I make it hard for you, sampai you rasa you have been with me for too long?". Later he got the number of anniversaries right. Just that the anniversary is not next week, but next month. Again, I make him guilty for not getting it right. Bad me.

Time went by, he is getting better in handling bad me. He will jot down in his diaries, make a note in his hand phone all the important dates. Until one day, I just realized I missed his birthday. He didn't say a word. I apologized profusely, but I guess after what I did to him, no amount of apologize will be able to offset me forgetting his birthday.

Did I tell you our birthday is just 13 days apart? I wanted him to forget my birthday that year, but I guess practice makes perfect. He didn't forget. Not that year. Not the year after, and after and after. I keep on deleting the notes that he makes on his phone about my birthday trying very hard to make him forget about my birthday or anniversary so that we can be even. No, he remembers. And I am still guilty!

This year, he uses a new trick. He cheated. He reminded the kids about my birthday! The past few days, my kids have started doing the countdown for him. When I went home last night, my kids gave me their handmade birthday cards. During sahur, they reminded him again. I'll never get even. White flag is up!